It ended, finally. My finale of engineering studies here, at least. I will be leaving soon, after submitting the hard-bounded final dissertations, of course, leaving behind the place and the people that will always be in memories (hope it is forever be there).
Five years seems to be short, but in fact, it is not... and it is quite a long period spent, in a place that had thought me, about life; about being glad and happy, and about being regret and despaired, all in a place of partial isolation. Irony.
My final year seems to be the most memorable, as most things were still fresh and alive in the mind. Though, some can be meaningful while some are better to be left to rest in peace.
I have, not as been experienced before, difficulties in creating this post. It had been a while since I posted anything, as what can be seen, my last post were done before Aidil Fitri. It's not that I have not tried to fill in the blanks, but, rather could not find any words to connect the dots, of those words. In fact, the first three paragraphs were written down and edited many times in between the last post until today. What'd holding me up?
Previously, I went to 'write' and 'store' my writings in one particular place in the mind. It was rather a 'safe storage' where I can easily defragment and retrieve later to be materialized in this blog. This time round, I could not even 'register' the entries, not until today.
Maybe there's an event that could have helped pulled the trigger and let it all run. One that I would not, and should not speak of. Failure should not be put as a burden, but rather a lesson learnt. Res ispa liquitor, but today is unlikely.
Mr. Glad and Ms. Happy seems to come and go towards the end. So as Mr. Worries and Ms. Guilt. With due respect, I let them in and out, sharing the best moment for a while, to have them teaching me one by one of what life really consisted. Guessed that anything happened was meant to happen. He (Allah) had written it down onto the Louh Mahfoudz and His obedient servants should embrace the destined like they should.
Sincrerity and Patience.
Those words are truly meaningful, after you had learnt them as you are living your life. For me, thousands meanings had been imposed to it, and left to hold a certain number of them after I had learnt them myself.
Emotion.
I was rather called emotion-less being back in school. But, it was rather caused by responsibility and training. I had learnt about it again later in the days, here. And how irony, most of them happened while in the final year. Glad and thanks to those who had been helping me rediscover this hidden being inside of me. It would be much appreciated.
So, what's next?
I hoped that I will be ready to face the world out there, for the future promised an infinite number of ends and possibilities. Good luck to me, Good luck to you too.
